elephant and castle. labai grazus pavadinimas.

[namai kvepia jazminais]

jei tik pasiimtum i sapnus
mane
tai butu devintas dangus
ryte
bet as galiu matyt
ta pati kaip ir tu
menulio pilnatis
virs geltonu misku...

patylekim. apsikabinkim ir patylekim.

sedejau vakar prie picadilly
ir kazko toks liudnumas uzejo
didelis didelis
lyg debesis
taip reikalingo sitam pragariskam karsciui lietaus.

ir staiga isgirdau
gal dvidesimt zmoniu
ir visi snekejo ta pacia kalba
ne vokieciu
bet panasi i vokieciu
ir ziedu valdova
ir sakau
jus olandes?
olandes
man labai grazi jusu kalba.
o jos taip ir nesuprato, ko noriu.
nieko nenoriu, man tik labai grazi jusu kalba.
ir taip stipriai suspaude sirdi.

o paskui dar toks brolis sako: buk mano mergaite. pirmieji zodziai kuriuos pasake. uzsiciaupk, atsakiau, nes tuoj apsiverksiu.

padainuok. padainuok man apie upe, gerai?

[victoria and albert museum kvepia bandelem]

visada pasistengsiu buti gera.
daug zmoniu aplinkui ikvepia graziems norams.
uzsiimsiu sodininkyste.
tas narcizo svogunelis, tikiu, prasyte prasosi isvysti pasauli.
gersiu daug koka kolos.
ieskosiu linkejimu nuo towerio tokiam geram zmogui juodais plaukais ir juodom akim.
tyliai ilgesiuos.
stipriai tikesiu.
niekada nesustosiu.

[buna taip. pasikrusi pasikrusi, paskui imi kalbetis... ne man buna. su. niekas cia neistaria jos vardo, nors ir to ji niekam nesko. bet cia nesvarbu. vis tiek buna]


Here I am back home again
And I’m here to rest
All they ask is where I’ve been
Knowing I’ve been west -

I’m the family’s unknown boy
Golden curls and envy hair
Pretty girls with faces fair
See the shine in the black sheep boy -

If you love me let me live in peace
And please understand
That the black sheep can wear the golden fleece
And hold the winning hand



          Black, black sheep boy, blue-eyed charmer, head hanging with horns from your father - oh, in a cold little mirror you were grown, by a black little wind you were blown, alone, alone, alone. Sad smile on your lips, you shake and shiver. Some animal sips where the river flows from a black little crack in a stone. To a crackle in a radio song, sing along, sing along, sing along. Warm light when your eyes fill with laughter. Some animal lies in the pasture, holes in its throat where the blood was drawn, in its mouth where the tongue was torn by your claws, your claws, your claws. I rose from a dream; we were running from every being that was hunting, but we let them get ahead of us. We let them lie in wait for us. We’re fucked, we’re fucked, we’re fucked. I rose from a dream; I had just destroyed everything with one crushing blow, and I woke up and watched it go, and I woke up and wagged my tongue. So long, so long, so long.

ivairiapusiskai.
buna kartais.
net nesipisant uzpisa.
tada supranti, kodel cia taip greitai ismokstama sakyti fak of and dai.
bet buna.
pavyksta prisiviliot jaukuma.
tada grizti namo. ir verdi lietuviskus makaronus su birtiskom pupelem.
ir tokia siluma.

(mit dem fahrrad geradeaus)

pasiilgsiu. kaip kazin ka.

jei dar truputis, zinau, isilieciau i ta miesta taip, kad taptume viena. bet rytojaus vakara mojuosiu jam balta nosinaite, pakilus aukstai aukstai.

rasau is to laptopo, kurio dar vakar negalejau pakesti. ir telefona jau ismokau uzrakinti. ka gi, su moderniom technologijom susidraugavau. belieka tik velei prisijaukint tave. arba ne.