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it’s been a while since i’ve held a pen
it’s been a while since i gave a shit
misery is much more comfortable you see
much more than happiness can be

it’s been a while since i smiled a smile
it’s been a while since my cold black heart
felt need to fix my life-long misery
or put some effort into tranquility

it’s been a while since i tried at all
guess giving up is my true call

it’s been a while since i felt alive
guess dying is where im left at