Unforgetful girl

Careless life - I can't except you. When I usually stare to girls' faces I feel that by the end of  a day I will have cried in order to forget that I am always claiming to be there for a long, suffering time. Last summer I lost your heart when you saw me sinking in a deep blue lake. To my mind, you till has thought that I am a miserable looser. I guess, at the moment you are sharing your leisure with a handsome guy suggesting you plenty of comfortabilities. I remember how you were laughing when I was going to die.
  Today I'am attending a cinema with my boyfriend. In practise, it is your fault that I have become a gay. In dark nights I get used to scre-
aming - In my opinion, I'm addicted to this. I'm always dreaming nightmares and in such extreme cases I even can't properly breath. To carry on, I have gone down to severe diarrhoea, I feel very dizzy. From my point of view, I'll be cut down of mortal disease AIDS. I'll give all my life if I have an opputunity to arrange a meeting with you,
Roxane.