A Toy

Can you feel when you're being toyed with? Can a person who's in deep adoration even notice what someone else is doing to him? It's a common thing that poeple are abusing the most delicate feeling, which is love. So disgusting, when it's you, who got yourself into the such maze: the only way out is to forget the feeling you caress for person, toying with you, but it's too dear to you, it's too precious. Why should you drop your love, because someone else has decided to use it for their favour? The question was phrased wrong - why heaven's name someone is trying to use love for their favour? How cruel do you have to be for such act.

They were somewhat of a couple. He couldn't imagine a day without her, he needed to inhale every word of her to live. She was his addiction. A day without a gentle world from her was as good as sleepless night - depression, he's crunching his finger nails, because he is nervous, heart is tearing him apart. Each coldness of her was a backstab for him. He was looking for a mistake in his behaviour, in his words, in his actions. Maybe he has done something wrong - he doesn't know of? But he didn't want to do anything bad to her... He loves her. She knows that. He does everything possible to show his love to her. He lives the love to her. Since when she has stopped adding cute words - he was getting killed, slowly, tediously. That killing was made on purpose. After few days she was giving him less and less attention - what has he done? Nothing, but she stabbed him yet again. Stab after stab he was getting weaker. Was she going to stab him for the last time? Is he going to survive that stab? No, when she stopped answering his messages he simply died. He died inside. His heart was beating, but that was not a beat of alive person anymore. It was a beat of a person who could not feel anymore.

Why give birth to love, when you won't continue it? Why act as if you love the person, when you're going to kill him? Far too many of us are being the toys, hanging on strings. Toys which are getting elevated by a single word from the person their love. Elevated toys won't handle the fall from there.