Mortuos voco, vivos plango.
I guess it sounds like that - disaster.
Can't even make myself listen to the song to check out if the words suits it - gosh.
Amen.

Umm... Have to do that... must... ahhh - no will...

1. Beginning of the end - either I'll write it, either... make a space between two chapters! Damn those vampy things

2. Moonlight - uhhh... no time for a song... but it is getting better, quite better... though not the best I've ever written...

3. Always, Living In Sin? Why NOT? Though those lyrics...

Slight, absolutely insignificant updates to my plans:

1. Moonlight Goddess - well, work has been started... But will it ever be finished? I doubt.

2. The lake - OMG... It seems I will have both rewrite it and then chunk this little 'masterpiece' into smaller chapters...

3. CSS - who knows margins and lists properties well? Mail me, plz!

4. No time for second part of the my only 'alive' fiction in rasyk.lt... Or, in other words - no way to write down the mess of new ideas.

God doesn't punish, nah. It only blesses everyone. And for those saying 'God punish you'... Well, I'd like to tell them - 'Be aware - Satan may be with you'...

Yes... Time had come. At last. I MUST do it. The lake, others... It must be finished at last and posted - at least on my own web, where nobody will see it... Rating? Who cares that? 1, 2 - it's the same. I know that my fiction isn't worth 2, though I am trying. Anyway...

The closest aims:
1. Put down on the paper the second part of 'the begininng odf the end'. Appx: 1 - 2 months...

2. Webisite. Design, content... Appx: never

3. The real story, Moonlight goddess, The curse... Appx: Unknown

God, save me... Either I'll sacrifice myself to the Dark One.

I am sliding on the icy road - nearly a mirror... Sad, it's not polished - perhaps I'd be able to see the reflection in it, including deep set aqua-clored eyes, fitted into the pale face, messy, fiery wild hair surrounding it, being blown by the winter wind... Slightly closed eyes, which avoids sun so much, and the gaze - witch's gaze. Or is it... One of fallen soul?
Everyday, it's the same... Sometimes I wish I broke this darkness and shyness inside (Or maybe within? gosh, it's so easy to talk in this language... though I don't know it good enough...) - as if in 'Crawling'...
Yes, I KNOW - I am one of the fallen. But is there any way to get away of this? Somehow I start wondering if writing in English would be better? No, not because of rating... I don't mind it. But fluency, being able to describe everything exactly as I think - this might be the reason. Funny - I even try thinking in it... Scenarios? Nice idea... But very difficult to...

Should I continue what I've started long time ago? Some say there's lots of 'sex', though I see none... Some say it is not interesting at all... Some - there's no fantasy ivolved.
But what can I do, if sexual activity is one of the main characteristics of my main character?.. People - what is the way out? Help, plz!

Chemistry... YUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK... hate it. Who the hell had invented it??? Ahhh... Those all orbitals, electrons... Hidrolysis... I guess i am getting nut already.
SOS! Somebody,save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

Dream... Those deep, tempting... Alluring brownish eyes, looking at me... I feel as he makes me go nearer... I long him... Long as if i knew him for so long, but that's nonsense... In the dream I am somehow... different. Dunno, what's the reason... The way I look like, feelings, strange emotions based bond with him?.. All I know - that's not just a dream. It seems to be kind of reflection, memories sometimes...  Yes, that's funny.  it suually ends at the moment I reach him and look up at the eyes, his longish golden hair... He embraces me... But sometimes - very rare - it goes on further. Way further...
Jesus, why am I telling this at all? After all, it's just a dream. MY dream.

Valentine... mmm... Why those people enjoy it so much? Well, if you have the one you love nearby - so close, so... Then it is really nice. But - imagine, you're lonely, nobody cares about you - not such a lovely one, right? Oh man... Sometimes I simply dream about  drowning into some other world, which is identical to this one and extremely different too... Where I'll meet someone who understands me, who cares my worries, who LOVES me... Ahh - that's just a dream. I'd be lucky if it ever came true... here...

Galva plysta, norisi staugti... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... banalu, taip? Bet man tai jau kasdienybe... Ehhh... Pasileisiu 'Always' - gal praeis? O gal vel sest prie neuzbaigtu kurineliu? Tiek daug alternatyvu...