Jau praejo daugiau nei menesis, o man wisdar sunku..Gal dar blogiau negu tuomet kaj tik issiskyrem.. Nors gal ne, nes tada galwojau, kad numirsiu.. Tada buwo neapsakomas sirdies tustumas lyg niekada nebebusi tu, lyg nebera tawo dalies, kuria atidawei jam, o jis sutrype wiska.. Nor jis nebuvo grubus, netgi swelnus, o ypac tame wakarelyje apsikabino mane ir sake neverkti. Bet as jau ji zinau, cia tik dar viena jo apgaule, tik dar vienas melas. Bet taip skaudu suzinoti, kad tie zodziai kajp "as tave myliu" ir buciniai buvo netikra. Taip sunku ant sirdies.. Niekam to nelinkiu, nes tai yra neapsakoma tustybe. Pasijauti kaip kvaile, galejusi patiketi graziais zodziais. Butent taip as ir jauciuosi visa si laika po issiskyrimo. Rasau jam, sveikinuosi, matau kiekviena diena. Man lb sunku matyti ji, bet as to pati noriu. Pasiilgstu jo akiu, kurios deja ziuri i mane su pasigailejimu.. Pasiilgstu tos sypsenos, kurios dabar niekada nematau nebent netycia uzklumpu ji snekanti su draugemis ir besijuokianti.. O jo sypsena yra pati nuostabiausia pasaulyje. Net nezinau uz ka as ji taip dievinu, juk sitaip likau iskaudinta. Nezinau ka atiduociau uz susitikima su juo, uz bucini su jausmais ir ta neapsakoma sypsena, kuri skirta tik man vienai.. Niekada to nebebus ir riek man susitaikyt su tuo, bet nezinau ar pajegsiu.. Per daug prisiminimiu liko..

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I Love You more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I Love You, until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will Love You
Until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song,
I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I Love You, I Love You,
Until the end of time

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will Love You, until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will Love You, I will Love You

Wat wat keistas tas gywenimas tikraj... Wiena diena werki krokodilo asarom, o jau kita taj net negali atsitoket kas cia wyxta kodel tau tajp sekasi... na idomu, tuo gywenimas ir yra nuostabus!!!

Viskas taip netikra... Del ko anksciau taip dziaugiausi pasirode to net nebuvo... Tiesiog apgaule... Draugai netikri, jausmai netikri... Atsizadejau daug del nieko... Del visisko netikrumo... O sitai labiausiai ir skaudina... Is zmoniu, is kuriu maziausiai tikiesi, sulauki blogiausio! Netikrumas skaudina!!!

Kartais buna tajp sunku... Nzn kur detis, ka daryti, kaip jam patikti.... Ka jis padaro wiska puikiai atsimeni pergalwoji simta kartu jo istartus zodzius, jo zvilgsni, ka jis nutylejo, ka pasake, ka galwojo..... Del jo per kelias akimirkas gali pasijusti laimingiausia pasaulyje, o dazniau pati nelaimingiausia.... Kai supranti tiesa, kuri yra anaiptol ne tokia grazi kokia isivaizdawai, smarkiai krenti..... Norisi mirti, prasmegti, dingti...... Begalinis skausmas uzvaldo wisa sirdy, galwa, kuna, siela..... Letai jis gniuzdo tawe.... Negali blaiwiai mastyti, tiesiog kankiniesi smarkiai.... Tokios asaros jau nepaslepiamos.. Atrodo jis ilipo i tawo widu, tu jam atidawei sawe, o jis tawe sudrasko! Stipriau nei kuris kitas zmogus... Negali jo ismesti is sawes, jau per welu.. Per stiprus jausmai tawo widuje ji laiko, o jis drasko, pleso i gabalus tawo sirdi.... Praejus siek tiek laiko kaltini sawe.. Galwoji, kad pati kalta, nereikejo jam to sakyti, nereikejo pykti, reikejo nusileisti.... Mastai, kodel jis sitaip? Gal tu negrazi, kvaila, nemaloni, neidomi.... Tokios mintys waldo wisa tawe... Sunku joms atsispirti...... Sunku pamirsti wiska....

Oh it hurts me baby
May be I act too much
You said:"It's over lady!
You are too ordinary for me..."

I want you're love
I want you to remeber me
But I know there's nothing good
For me it's only a dream...

What are you thinking
About this feeling?
I know for you it's just a game
For being such fool, I feel a shame.

This song it's just like others,
But I don't know how to express my feelings.
My only lover,
I think it's you my darling..

But i have to reconcil results
I don't want to cry for you
Do you understand what you've done to me??
I think even you know.. You don't care..

There are a lot of words I didn't say to you
And I think they wouldn't come out of my heart.
You think that I'm stupid,
But I'm that way just becouse of you....

isimylejus.....nelaimingai......

I can't go back
To the times with you..
I don't want to go back
When you were so cruel...

meile yra viskas, bet as ja praradau...

Now I'm standing here alone
With all my hopes,
Standing here once again
With broken dreams...:(