kam to reikia? kam, po velnių, to reikia...

You're too important for anyone
You play the role of all you want to be
But I, I know who you really are
You're the one who cries before the dawn

But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape, you can't escape

You think I can't see right through your eyes
Scared to death to face reality
No one seems to hear your hidden cries
You're left to face yourself alone
But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid
But you can't abandon everyone
You can't escape, you don't want to escape

I am so sick of speaking words that no one understands
Is it clear enough that you can live your whole life all alone
I can hear you in a whisper, but you can't even hear me screaming

Where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid
But you can't reject the whole world
You can't escape, you won't escape
You can't escape, you don't want to escape

[EVANESCENCE Where Will You Go]

Ką tik dar vienas žmogus, kurį laikiau man labai artimu draugu, tikru draugu, parodė, kaip jis vis dėlto yra toli nuo manęs. Liūdna. Aš norėjau tik atvirai pasikalbėt (juk taip seniai kalbėjom), norėjau tik papasakot (juk taip seniai kalbėjom), norėjau tik paklausyt (juk taip seniai kalbėjom). Ne. Kodėl visi galvoja, kad man viskas taip lengva ir viskas taip gerai..? Jei aš garsiai nerėkiu apie tai, ką man skauda, tai dar nereiškia, kad kartais aš nenoriu tyliai pašnibždėti. Ir nesitikėti, kad guosi, to man mažiausiai reikia. Tikėtis tik, kad suprasi ir palaikysi. Taip, man galbūt sekasi. Bet kokia kaina...Nebegaliu susikaupti, visiškai nebevaldau savo minčių ir nuotaikų, staiga nei iš šio, nei iš to mirtinai pavargstu... Dabar dar ir tu su savo „papasakok kam nors kitam...“ O sunkiausia ateity. Sužeidei. Saugosiuos. (Nu)Tolstam.

(nu)tolstam

Sunday Jazz

gražus rytas

who am I?

šiandien neturiu žodžių. na, gal ne visai taip. turiu, bet jie netinka. tiksliau, netinka kitiems. tinka tik man vienam. norėčiau pakalbėt, bet nebemoku

Hold up... Hold on... Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them someday
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... Why you scared
You'll never change what’s been and gone

[OASIS Stop Crying Your Heart Out]

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