Sentimentali šneka

Prieš porą metų, kai nešiojau plaukus veik iki pečių, man sakė jog aš panašus į Angelo Kelly.
Vėliau, kai nusikirpau visai trumpai, draugai sakė, jog aš idiotas, choreografijos mokytoja - jog „netekau šarmo“, o vienas mažius dar ilgai mane rodė it eksponatą „žiūrėkit, čia šitas, kur apsikirpo".
Dabar, kai plaukų ilgis atitinka aukso vidurį tarp tų dviejų kraštutinumų, aš vis dar ieškau.
Ieškau savęs. Ieškau kitų, į mane panašių. Ir nors kartais apima nostalgija „seniems“ laikams (treji metai atgal), aš nusigręžiu, nesistengdamas pamiršti to, kas buvo, ir nežinodamas, kas bus.

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Just as sure as the sky is blue and the ocean too, I will never lie to you,
And I`ve never, ever done anything, that would render me untrue,
But for you I can`t say the same, you have only brought me pain,
There`s no use in pointing fingers when I`m the one to blame.

And I know that it`s over, and there`s nothing left to say,
And we all pay the prices of the games that we play,
I don`t know how to love you, but I can`t walk away...

What do I have to say?
What do I have to do?
I need to hear you say,
“I just wanna be with you”,
What do I have to change?
What do I have to prove?
You`re never gonna change.
You`re never gonna change.

It`s still blows me away somehow,
When you seem so proud of the damage that you`ve done,
I`m a puppet in your pageant,
I`m a game you play for fun,
Still now when I see you frown,
And you see me smile,
And you say I`m still the one,
You are quite the actress,
But I`m just not that dumb.

And I know that it`s over, and there`s nothing left to say,
And we all pay the prices of the games that we play,
I don`t know how to love you, but I can`t walk away...


What do I have to say?
What do I have to do?
I need to hear you say,
“I just wanna be with you”,
What do I have to change?
What do I have to prove?
You`re never gonna change.
You`re never gonna change.

Never changing, never changing, never changing...

You`re never gonna change...

What do I have to say?
What do I have to do?
You`re never gonna change,
What do I have to say?
What do I have to do?
I need to hear you say,
“I just wanna be with you”,
What do I have to change?
What do I have to prove?
You`re never gonna change,
You`re never gonna change,
What do I have to say?
What do I have to do?
I need to hear you say,
(You`re never gonna change)
What do I have to change?
What do I have to prove?
You`re never gonna change…

"Never Gonna Change"
Saliva