Nieko. Tushcia.
Gywenu. O gal tik atrodo? Juk jei tikrai gywenchiau, tada dzhiaugchiausi, linksminchiausi, galu gale MYLEČIAU.
O dabar nieko. Nieko nera.
Ash negywenu. Tik skrajojiu tarp zhemes ir dangaus...


" O jeigu taip atsitiks, jeigu ji prarasiu, bent jau busiu patyrusi viena laimingiausiu dienu sawo gywenime. O turint galwoje, koks pasaulis niurus, wiena lajminga diena - bewejk stebuklas..."


This is our world but they destroy it they´ll watch it burn in hell
This is our world but they destroy it they´ll watch it burn in hell
This is our time we have the sign they can´t take that away
This is our dream hear the future scream for a brand new day
One two buckle my shoe
Three four knock on the door
Five six pick up sticks
Seven eight then it´s too late
This is our world they burn it so they burn in hell
This is our world they burn it so they burn in hell – burn in hell
Watch the clock you watch it tic you watch it toc
Watch the slip of time this our world it´s not yours it´s not mine
This is the dream this is the time we can make it turn,
We can´t just watch can´t just watch as it burns
This is our world and we destroy it we need to save ourselves
One two buckle my shoe
Three four knock on the door
Five six pick up sticks
Seven eight then it´s too late
This is our world they burn it so they burn in hell
This is our world they burn it so they burn in hell – burn in hell
Can´t you see this is our world
                  [Reamonn - New world]

Oh no, not you
oh no, not anyone but you
Everytime I realise
there´s something wrong when I see you
The way you try to prophesise that
dreams just can't come true
The aimes you tried to undermine my reach
what I still believe
The times you tried to bring me down
cut me up and make me bleed
But now the hand of faith has turned
opened up and turned inside
What you stole dreams
returned my belief in life
And when you turn, you,
you turn inside
and when you burn, you,
you burn alive
Cause everytime I opened up
- you were never around
And everytime I lost myself
- you were nowhere to be found
I lived inside an innocence
but innocence was born to die
Inside the soul of everyone
whose lost their faith in life
And life is a dream to me
life is a dream to
Sometimes I wonder
if you knew it all the time
And tried to stop my innocence
from leaving you behind
I thought that you were powerful
I thought that you were strong
But now when I look around
I realise there´s something wrong
And when you turn, you,
you turn inside
and when you burn, you,
you burn alive
Cause everytime I opened up
- you were never around
And everytime I lost myself
- you were nowhere to be found
I lived inside an innocence
but innocence was born to die
Inside the soul of everyone
whose lost their faith in life
And life is a dream to me
life is a dream to me
Yeah, life is a dream to me
life is a dream to me
But now you want to open up
but there is no one around
Now you try to lose yourself
in the hope that you'll be found
I see you for your innocence
I see your soul wants to fly
You feel the hand of faith has turned
and given you back your life
Life is a dream to you and me
life is a dream to you and me
life is a dream to you and me
            [Reamonn - Life is a dream]


mhm. dabar tikraj isitikinau, kad atkeliawo ruduo. shaltas, shlapias ir purwinas.
nieko ishkentesiu, iki zhiemos...
myliu zhiema...

pesin ishchio ninapisanih
skolka? skazhi kukushka? prapoj...
gorade mne shic yli na wiselkah
kamniam lizhach ili garec zvizdoj
mmmm...
sonce mojo sglini na mine,
mmmm...
maja ladon priwracilas w kulach
mmmm...
i jesli jesc porach, daj ognia
mmmm...
wot tak.

Two times today I had to call you up to let you down
Don't wanna let you down
Two times today I ran out of luck and I let you down
Don't wanna let you down
Cause I fall down when you're not around
Yeah I fall down when you're not around
Two times today I messed up and let you down
Don't wanna let you down
Thought I heard you say I nearly lost your love
cause I let you down
Don't wanna let you down
Cause I fall down when you're not around
Yeah I fall down when you're not around
I fell down two times today
I fell down two times today
Yeah I fall down when you're not around
Yeah I fall down when you're not around
I feel I'm falling down, take a look at me can you see me fall
I'm falling down, can't you see me falling down
Can't you see me fall,
Can't you see me falling down
Can't you see me falling down
I feel I'm falling down
I feel I'm falling down
Take a look at me I'm falling down please don't let me fall.
                [Reamonn - Falling down ]

Kai neturejiau ko prarasti, turejiau wiska. Kai liowiausi buti, kas esu, atradau sawe.
                ["Vienuolika minuchiu"]

.Pawargimas.

Ash tajp skubejiau jau wisada kazhkur,
bet karta... pawargau.
Atrode, lyg lajmejimuj pasaulin
busiu ash atejes

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Dar saulen akys zhwelgs ne karta,
Tachiau ir ten jos ras demiu...
Todel noretusi wisaj
Be pedsako ishnykt, prazhut.

Ash nezhinau, kodel shiandien toks pawargimas
Sukauste prota ir jausmus.
Ak, buki dar, nors duzhtanchiose formose,
Pasauli, man prasmingas ir grazhus.

                  ---

Ash buwau wisada per daug rimtas,
Man patiko tik wandenys gilus.
Buwo siela dazhnaj susikrimtus:
Sawimi ir wiskuo nusiwylus.

Nepabuges gelmen pasinerti
(Shito niekad lengwaj nepamirshiu),
Ish gyliu wandenu viena karta
Ishkilau wel i pati pawirshiu.

Vel niekingi dalykai patinka,
Grejt suduzhtanchiu stiklo zhajslu
Ieshko blizganchios akys aplinkuj.

Vel shiandien lengwapedishkaj myliu...
Nors tikraj, nemeluotai turiu
Siela liudna, skausminga, gilia.

                                [ V.Machernis ]


Shiandien suzhinojau ish pazhystamu, kad nusizhude ju artimas draugas, klasiokas. Ishgirdus, taj pritruko zhodzhiu. Prisiminau, kajp kazhkada TU norejai taj padaryti. Prisiminiau, kajp ash zhadejiau nushokt nuo stogo.
Retkarchiajs tokios mintys wis dar mane aplanko. Bet ash jas wejiu tolyn.

Ishberk y klozeta tabletes, sudegink wirwes, tiltus per gilia upe, uzhkask sode rewolweri, palysk po dushu ir gywenk toliau. Buk nelajmingas, buk nemylimas, buk elgeta, buk ligonis - bet gywenk

          GYVENK!

ponemaesh ti ushol, a ja zhdala
ponemaesh ja raditiliam wrala
ti niznaesh ti ushol i zhisn ushla
no wisna mine spasla...

ponemaesh mne nidawna snilsa son
ponemaesh w etam sne bil ti, i on
pretstawliajish ja niznala shto spala
ja k tibe w asne prishla
ponemaesh...
ponemaesh ? net nihira ti ne ponemaesh...

Ash noriu suprasti mejle. Zhinau, kad gywenau, kaj mylejiau, o dabar net ir patys idomiausi dalykaj manes nesudomina.
Bet mejle bajsi: matau, kajp kenchia drauges, nenoriu, kad ir man tajp butu. Ankschiau jos shajpesi ish mano nekaltybes, o dabar klausinejia, kajp man tajp lengwaj pawyksta uzhkariauti wyrus. Shypsausi, bet neatsakau, kadangi zhinau, jog tas receptas dar blogiau uzh liga - ash tiesiog neisimyliu. Kiekviena diena wis ajshkiau matau, kad wyraj silpni, nepastowus, nepatikimi, nenuspejiami...
Mano tikslas - suprasti, kas ta mejle. Mane iskaudino tie, kuriems buwau patikejusi sawo shirdi. Ir kajp chia yra, kad tie, kurie suwirpina mano siela, neuzhdega kuno, o kurie uzhdega kuna, nepatraukia mano sielos.
                        [Coelho. "Vienuolika minuchiu"]

Man tik 15, o ash jau netikiu mejle...
Esu wisaj ne najwi. Neesu kokia romantishku filmu prisizhiurejusi paaugle.
Netikiu mejle. Byjau... Ir nezhinau, ar sawo trumpame gywenime, ash daugiau iskaudinau ir suzhlugdzhiau zhmoniu, ar daug zhmoniu suzhlugde mane.
Prisiminiau tawe. Galiu pasakyti, kad tawe prisimenu wisada kaj man liudna ir sunku. Tikriausiaj delto , kad tu buwaj wenintele mano atrama. Buwaj, o gal ir likaj... Nes ash wis dar dabar tawe lajkau nuostabiu zhmogum...
Pasaulyje nera mejles. O gal taj tik mano kwajlas ishsigalwojimas. Esu pasimetus...

Tik tau vienam nupieshiu pawejksla:
Kambari, su zhydrom sienom
Ir geltonom saulegrazhom
Zhaliu staliuku viduryje
Tik tau wienam pawejksle,
Priskinsiu ramuniu ir imerksiu
Y  didele rozhine waza
Stowinchia ant pilkos palanges.
Ir tas juodas katinas
Gulintis ant baltos lovos
Su ikiriu zhwilgsniu
Zhwelgiantis i tawe
Bus skirtas tik tau.
Tik tau wienam
Ash
Sawo krauju
Nupieshiu shi pawejksla
Tik tau wienam
Ash
Dowanojiu
Sawo
Suzhejsta
Shirdi…


[20:48] <NEVET> Anais laikais buvo tvarka. Ateina vyras pas pana i namus. Trenkia kumsciu i stala ir sako: sita bus mano zmona..ir viskas..sekancia diena vestuves...
[20:48] <NEVET> o dabar..tai per senas..tai per jaunas...
[20:48] <NEVET> baisu

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[20:56] <NEVET > bl..ir dar siandien per teise toki uzdavini dave
[20:56] <NEVET > kaip tik man :)))
[20:56] <NEVET > kaip geda pasidare
[20:56] <NEVET > :)))
[20:57] <NEVET > zinai koki ?
[20:58] <NEVET > mergina su vaikinu susitare susitikti 8 valanda prie kino teatro. Sutartu laiku vaikinas neatejo. Mergina ilgai lauke. Belaukdama persalo. Susirgo. Ir padave vaikina i teisma del kompensacijos del gydymo islaidu
[20:58] <NEVET > Ar vaikino ir merginos susitarimas yra sandoris ?
[20:58] <NEVET > ar turi mergina teisiniu galimybiu prisiteisti kompensacija ?
[20:59] <NEVET > bl..kaip geda po to pasidare :)))
[20:59] <NEVET > Bet aciu dievui issiaiskinom, kad mergina neturi jokiu galimybiu laimeti :)))
[21:00] <NEVET > cia buvo tik moraline vaikino pareiga ateiti
[21:00] <NEVET > o uz morales pazeidimus atsakomyben netraukiama
[21:01] <NEVET > atsakomybe yra tik uz teisinius pazeidimus

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[21:27] <NEVET > Puiku :)) Vadinasi protingeji :)))
[21:27] <NEVET > Saunuole :)

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[18:52] <NEVET > susizavejai kokiu nors grazuoliu mokykloje :))) ?
[18:52] <NEVET > :)))))
[18:53] <NEVET > va va...:))) ir jis tau zinoma labai patinka ir priverte tave atsisakyti senmerges likimo :)))))
[18:56] <NEVET > kai man buvo 15 as irgi panasiai maniau :))) sakiau jokiu merginu....visos tokios ir anokios...buvau potencialus senbernis..o dabar matai kaip viskas apsiverte...niekaip nuo taves atsitraukti negaliu :))) o kodel tau klasiokai nepatinka ?
[19:02] <NEVET > pas mus klaseje kazkas panasaus budavo...bet dabar visi tie kietuoliai arba sedi kalejimuose arba skina braskes Londone
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Nrt nezhina, kodel shi zhmogu dabar prisiminiau. Bet ash ji gerbiu. Jis pakejte mano mastyma, pamoke, ishajshkino daug ka. Nors ir wirtualiaj. Achiu.


[18:53] <NEVET > ir kodel sriubos nevalgai ?

Argi nebutu nuostabu, jei gywenime turetume bent wiena zhmogu, kuris mus myletu nekrejpdamas demesio y musu klajdas? Ar nebutu nuostabu, kad ir mes galetume tajp myleti bent wiena zhmogu.
Meile nera emocija, kuria pajusti lengwa. Ankschiau mes galbut siejome mejle su tokiajs nejgiamajs jausmajs, kajp sakausmas, izhejdimas, atstumimas ir nusiwylimas. Bet mes galime atsiriboti nuo nejgiamu jausmu ir ishmokti patirti mejle kajp tejgiama emocija...

Kajp ash galiu kitam paprastaj parodyti, kad jis man rupi?

I see the fear in the things we don't understand
I see the fear in another blind man
I can't hold back this fight that stills inside
I can't hold back who I am

I know you're strong, I know you're belong
I know you're strong
My beautiful one
I know you're strong, I know you're belong
I know you're strong
My beautiful one

I can't turn away from what I believe
I can't destroy or deceive
Oh no Oh no
I know a beauty in all that I can see
I can't hold on but you can't release

'Cause they can't hold you
And they can't hold me
And they can't hold on
To what they can't believe
'Cause they can't hold you
And they can't hold me
And they won't understand
'Till the blind man sees
                          [Reamonn - Strong]