Vyrai atrodė keisti gyvuliai su savo lytimi, panašia į nirštantį žvėrį, ir geismu, panašiu į skausmą, iš kurio jie stengiasi išsivaduoti lįsdami į tave pro visas skyles.

J.R.

Profesija: Evakuotoji.


Įrašas M. Cvetajevos mirties liudijime

Vakaras Arlio kavinės terasoje.

Why everywhere I go, everything I do, the Doubt survives? A Doubt about Reality, as we understand It.

Viskas yra kitaip, nei man atrodo.

jazz & orgy

Jaunuolis Vaidotas išgyvena neigimo laikotarpį.

Matydamas aplinkinius, surandančius naujus žmones, kuriais susižavi, kuriuos įsimyli, ar kurių ima nekęsti, nuo kurių ima pavargti  ir galop nutolsta; matydamas kaip keičiasi pasaulėvaizdis, kurio suvokimas adekvatus tavo pasisemtai patirčiai; jausdamas priartėjusį  kosmosą naktimis, kai vaikščioji upės pakrantėmis; suvokdamas koks laikinas, subjektyvus ir sąlygiškas yra tavo pasaulis, norom nenorom tyliai sau sukuždi: o vis dėlto ji sukasi. Draugė paprašo pakartoti, nes neišgirdo, o tu atsisuki, kukliai nusišypsai ir pakartoji: ačiū, kad esi.

It's a wonderful world
And you take and you give
And the sun fills the sky
In the space where you live

It's a day full of dreams
It's a dream of a day
And the joy that it brings
Nearly sweeps her away

It's a wonderful world
As the buildings fall down
And you quicken your step
'til your feet leave the ground
And you're soaring above
All the sorrow below
And you're falling in love
With those you don't know

And your heart feels so wide
And your heart fills so strong
It was never a place
That you felt you belonged

It's a wonderful world
Full of wonderful things
And the people fall down
And abandon their dreams

(I hear him, he's talking out loud
Sometimes he whistles while walking
How could he know any better?
I weep for him, I weep for him now)

It's a wonderful world
It's a real crying shame
Cos she's hurting herself
In a violent way
And there's people she knows
That won't even try
And they're trapped in their lives
Feeling terrified
And it's in times like these
That she promised to call
But the scale of our love
Is diminished and small

It's a wonderful world
And she doesn't know why
She wakes up each day
And continues to cry

(He's sleeping his troubles away
He's finding it too hard to bear
I'm with him every step of the way
I weep for him, I weep for him now)

It's a wonderful world
And you take and you give
And the sun fills the sky
In the space where you live


D.S. Wonderful World